U/S Day

**so I'm not always saying IM/IP/IF, etc, I gave my Intended Parents fake names; Lily and David.**

So, as you know, today was the U/S. Our First, and hopefully, not our last.

My hospital always gets me in fast. Usually I'm out before my time to go in is there. I think they wanted to torture us this time. So I waited in the waiting room for a half hour. Lily text and let me know they were at the phone and ready when I was.

I finally got called back.

The U/S tech (who I'd never even seen before was WONDERFUL (more later on). I explained everything, and she was said she could take a quick peek to see if I would need a vaginal one, or an abdominal one... I didn't really want to have to get naked during the phone call. 

She told me she could see "stuff" but she would do a vaginal one for better pictures.

That was a relief. At least there was "stuff" in there.

So, I got undressed, laid back down, and called Lily. No answer. 

Called again. No answer.

I started getting really paranoid.

I called her phone normally, and I could hear her, but she couldn't hear me.

Fan-freakin-tastic.

I had full service, but I'm imagining something with all the led that's in Radiology was screwing with my phone.

She tried to call me back. Nothing. 

I got a text saying to make sure I at least got some photos to email, and to call her when it was done.  

I told the U/S tech who was currently "doing the boring stuff" (ovaries/etc) That I guess we could just continue on. I asked for special permission to record the heartbeat (if there was one) she said yes.

I wasn't really looking up at the screen, but decided I might as well. I was completely bummed.

Then my phone rang----- it was Lily, and she could see me, and I could see her!!! David popped his head in. They were grinning ear to ear.

I flipped the camera towards the screen just in time for the U/S tech to scroll?? over my uterus.

There were two dark circles.

Lily squealed almost immediately, "IS THAT TWIIIINNNS?"

The u/s tech told them it was. And then, she continues to talk to them like they were right there, explained where THEIR babies were, the yolk sack, the baby, FEET (yes, we saw little nubby feet).

Lily and David were smiling. They thought that was it. "Oh! Thank you so much!"

Then she measured them.

Baby A was Measuring 6w1day (4 days behind) but she said when they are that little it's really hard to get an accurate measurement. 

I thought Lily's faces was gonna break. They kept looking at each other, just so awestruck.

And again, they thought it was over.

Then the U/S tech zoomed in, and pointed at the screen. "See that? That's their heart beating." You could see the little flicker, I never saw that with Cody, no one ever showed me, it was fascinating. They moved and, andI could see that Lily was getting a little teary.

Then came the heartbeats.

Baby A= 136
Baby B= 140

Lily cried.

David looked close.

They were perfect little babies. 

Sorry for the crap quality, but I took a pic of the photo with my phone so you could see.

  

6 Weeks

I cannot stress how much I am so excited to get to this point. By this last time last transfer I was waiting to "pass" what should have been a healthy growing baby, and what was a sac that had grown but never developed into anything.

Although it's a bit naive, I've been telling myself that if I make it here I'll be good. And, I'm all for the power of positive thinking. 

I didn't really write down dates, but I can still recap on the last week:

• I went through almost a full week of sleeping upright so that the whole world did not spin in the morning.
• I've discovered that I pretty much have to be constantly eating if I don't want to be queasy all day.
• I got my final Beta results back, they were great at 17,119. I set my appointment for the first u/s.
• I decided I need to purchase stock in IceBreakers sours--- again, a morning (all day) sickness lifesaver.

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The Embryo This Week
Obviously, she's growing like crazy!
She's also circulating blood with her increasingly more sophisticated circulatory system.
She's about to get cuter too, since she's starting to sprout a nose, eyes, ears, chin and cheeks.
And she might even be wiggling her (paddle-like) hands and feet.

("The Bump" website has decided it's a girl apparently)

5 Weeks

I'm 5 Weeks today!!!!!!

So let's recap the last week

1/20/13-- Still POAS but my lines are now maxed out. I think I'm doing it out of habit now.
1/21/13-- see above :-p
1/22/13-- Spent the evening throwing up compliments of a stomach virus and morning sickness. Stopped POAS, I believe I'm pregnant.
1/23/13-- 1st Beta came back at 813 ; had to try my first "preggie pop" to combat my new "morning" sickness which came about 9:00pm and 11:00pm
1/24/13-- Nothing too exciting, more "morning" sickness.
1/25/13-- 2nd Beta came back at 1912, which made for a doubling time of 38 hours. Morning sickness now oddly gone?
1/26/13-- nada!

So, THIS WEEK:

The embryo(s) (looking kind of like a tadpole) is starting to form major organs (heart, kidney, liver, stomach) and systems (nervous, circulatory, digestive). Baby's presence in your uterus triggers production of hCG (the hormone detected by pregnancy tests)... which triggers production of other hormones like estrogen and progesterone... which trigger all those great symptoms you've probably been noticing!

Plans Plans Plans

Three Days until we transfer.

That means that it's Seven Days until I take my first home pregnancy test.

Last time I started the day after transfer. Not because I thought it would be positive (Wow... there'd of had to been 12 in there or something...) But because I wanted to see that first FAINT line.

I'll be testing 4dp5dt this time, or for those of you that don't know IVF lingo--- 4 days past 5 day transfer.  Equivalent to 9dpo. I'm not expecting a positive unless both of them take, really.  Not that early. I will start reallying "needing" lines the next day.

I got my flight itinerary tomorrow. I'm so excited. After the miscarriage, it seemed like it would never get here. Especially after it was postponed several times.

The meds this time seem to have really flown by. 

I'm packing tonight, and tomorrow will be my last day at work before transfer. I fly out Thursday morning. 

It's just got to work this time. It really does. After this.. they'll only have two left. I'm paranoid that they'll want to try another surro with those last two. I wouldn't blame them.... but I would hate it. 

I can't imagine starting over again. Matching with someone, going through Legal again..... bleh.

Eight Days

We'll be transferring two little embies in eight days.  I cannot tell you how much I'm hoping it will all work out this time. Miscarriage is a stressful, long and sad experience.

Today was the last of my three lining check/blood works before tranfer. My uterus seems better than ever and I am so FREAKING excited.

I promise to have  juicy blog soon, but for now. Hugs and Love xx